of tumult in the gut

"The first need is therefore to transcend the old order.
 Before any new order can be defined,
the absolute power of the established,
 the hold upon us of what we know and are,
must be broken.
 New life comes always from outside our world,
as we commonly conceive that world.
This is the reason why in order to invent,
one must yield to the indeterminate within him,
or, more precisely,
to certain ill-defined impulses
which seem to be of the very texture
 of the ungoverned fullness
which John Livingston Lowes calls:
   'the surging chaos of the unexpressed. '
Chaos and disorder are perhaps the wrong terms
for that indeterminate fullness and activity of the inner life.
 For it is organic, dynamic, full of tension and tendency.
 What is absent from it,
except in the decisive act of creation,
is determination, fixity,
any commitment to one resolution or another
of the whole complex of its tensions.
 It is a working sea of indecision. . . .
 But if it were without order of some kind
 it would be without life."








                                                         Brewster Ghiselin